Take it in positive view

Life is never flat and let you stay in your comfort. Challenge and fail is appear in everyone's life. Sometimes we never know what a surprising problem appear or what a lovely position we are. The things that we should remember is don't be cry to loud in sadness and don't be laugh so loud in your happiness. Sadness and happiness walks aside, in same road but in different way and time. This is really embarrassing moment in my life. 
I still remember when I hate math since I was in elementary school. I thought I would never love it in my life even I know it's important. From there an then, I never want to learn and fight with it. Even I got worst mark, I was never change it. Just let it flow by a reason " that's not my hobby, that's not my future, my future is in language class". I know that was true, and I felt it happened until I was in junior and high school. I was never learn math unless I taught by killer teacher.I still felt that math never give effect with my life, it just burden me, anytime!. Again and again i ignored it, and I know that my teacher would spoiled me by gave me good mark, even I knew it was not my work, it was not my result, absolutely!
Now the situation is different.Finally I choose the department as I expected since I was in elementary school, that is language department. I love it, and i proud to be here. One day, I got a course and I was not really love it. That was because it seems like math, and I saw it as difficult as math. As what I did in math, I ignored it and felt that it wasn't t my hobby, it was not my future. The 'teacher" will help my mark and so on. That was my negative thinking on me. I tried hard to learn it, but I used to fail. After that, I was give up and back to my "bad" motto. Finally, at the end o the semester I fail! Actually, I was not really surprised, I was not afraid, I felt calm and I have no tears welling up. Meanwhile, my lectures said different thing and from different view. I didn't know that he already help my mark, but it didn't work. I disappointed with myself. Moreover when he said "sorry, i could do nothing. I just do my job as the rule". I am not angry with that, but it was inspiring e that he was an professional lecturer and he helped me to change my bad paradigm about "teacher" who always help their student when they know them, and spoiled them by give good mark, even the result is not appropriate. If you are the parts of teacher, stop your act in making your to be spoiled by helping their mark to be good. It work, if you want to increase their prestige, but its totally fail for their future. They will never learn, they will never fight. They will always proud with "fake mark" .....

with hug

Nana, i sadness